rUM+aNd+RaiSiNs

2006-06-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

Something that really hit my heart..

I was then an only child who had everything I could ever want.

But even a pretty, spoiled and rich kid could get lonely once in a while

so when Mom told me that she was pregnant, I was ecstatic.

I imagined how wonderful you would be and how we'd always be together

and how much you would look like me.

So, when you were born, I looked at your tiny hands and feet and

marveled at how beautiful you were.

We took you home and I showed you proudly to my friends.

They would touch you and sometimes pinch you, but you never reacted.

When you were five months old, some things began to bother Mom.

You seemed so unmoving and numb,

and your cry sounded odd --- almost like a kitten's.

So we brought you to many doctors.

The thirteenth doctor who looked at you quietly said

you have the "cry du chat" (pronounced Kree-do-sha) syndrome,

"cry of the cat" in French.

When I asked what that meant, he looked at me with pity and softly said,

"Your brother will never walk nor talk."

The doctor told us that it is a condition that afflicts one in 50,000 babies,

rendering victims severely retarded.

Mom was shocked and I was furious.

I thought it was unfair.

When we went home, Mom took you in her arms and cried.

I looked at you and realized that word will get around that you're not normal.

So to hold on to my popularity, I did the unthinkable ...

I disowned you.

Mom and Dad didn't know but I steeled myself not to love you as you grew.

Mom and Dad showered you love and attention and that made me bitter.

And as the years passed, that bitterness turned to anger, and then hate.

Mom never gave up on you.

She knew she had to do it for your sake.

Everytime she put your toys down, you'd roll instead of crawl.

I watched her heart break every time she took away your toys and

strapped your tummy with foam so you couldn't roll.

You struggle and you're cry in that pitiful way,

the cry of the kitten.

But she still didn't give up.

And then one day, you defied what all your doctors said --

you crawled.

When mom saw this, she knew you would eventually walk.

So when you were still crawling at age four,

she'd put you on the grass with only your diapers

on knowing that you hate the feel of the grass on your skin.

Then she'd leave you there.

I would sometimes watch from the windows and smile at your discomfort.

You would crawl to the sidewalk and Mom would put you back.

Again and again, Mom repeated this on the lawn.

Until one day, Mom saw you pull yourself up and

toddle off the grass as fast as your little legs could carry you.

Laughing and crying, she shouted for Dad and I to come.

Dad hugged you crying openly.

I watched from my bedroom window this heartbreaking scene.

Over the years, Mom taught you to speak, read and write.

From then on, I would sometime see you walk outside,

smell the flowers, marvel at the birds, or just smile at no one.

I began to see the beauty of the world through your eyes.

It was then that I realized that you were my brother and

no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn't,

because I had grown to love you.

During the next few days, we again became acquainted with each other.

I would buy you toys and

give you all the love that a sister could ever give to her brother.

And you would reward me by smiling and hugging me.

But I guess, you were never really meant for us.

On your tenth birthday, you felt severe headaches.

The doctor's diagnosis --leukemia.

Mom gasped and Dad held her,

while I fought hard to keep my tears from falling.

At that moment, I loved you all the more.

I couldn't even bear to leave your side.

Then the doctors told us that your only hope is

to have a bonemarrow transplant.

You became the subject of a nationwide donor search.

When at last we found the right match,

you were too sick,

and the doctor reluctantly ruled out the operations.

Since then, you underwent chemotherapy and radiation.

Even at the end, you continued to pursue life.

Just a month before you died,

you made me draw up a list of things you wanted to do

when you got out of the hospital.

Two days after the list was completed,

you asked the doctors to send you home.

There, we ate ice cream and cake,

run across the grass,

flew kites,

went fishing,

took pictures of one another and

let the balloons fly.

I remember the last conversation that we had.

You said that if you die, and if I need of help,

I could send you a note to heaven

by tying it on the string of any balloon and letting it fly.

When you said this, I started crying.

Then you hugged me.

Then again, for the last time, you got sick.

That last night,

you asked for water,

a back rub,

a cuddle.

Finally,

you went into seizure with tears streaming down your face.

Later, at the hospital,

you struggled to talk but the words wouldn't come.

I know what you wanted to say.

"Hear you," I whispered.

And for the last time, I said,

"I'll always love and I will never forget you.

Don't be afraid. You'll soon be with God in heaven."

Then, with my tears flowing freely,

I watched the bravest boy I had ever known finally stop breathing.

Dad, Mom and I cried until I felt as if there were no more tears left.

Patrick was finally gone, leaving us behind.

From then on, you were my source of inspiration.

You showed me how to love life and live to the fullest.

With your simplicity and honesty,

you showed me a world full of love and caring.

And you made me realize that

the most important thing in this life is

to continue loving without asking why or how and without setting any limit.

Thank you, my little brother, for all these.

2006-06-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

hey all....seems that chelsy liu has gone into hiding or smthing...
been missing in action for 6 months...
yup...n de past 6 months i went thru...
im so gonna remember it...
its tonnes n tonnes of hardship n crap...
n endurance n perserverance n more...
its a very tiring n tough journey i'll say...
but u wana know wad this journey got me?

tada!!! hahaa....smile to myself.....

[ pic to be posted later! hahaa *sorry* ]

yup..anyway ive gotten myself a bmw 3 series...
not very wow...but not too bad for a 21yr gal rite?
n im so gonna hurry clear my darts n hit on my license.
o...n de prob is i haven even gotten de time to book my basic..
man....wad if i fail...hahaa ever heard of someone with a car...but no license??? hahaa
anyway...i'll work hard for tt...

meanwhile....really excited for de trip on weds....=)
wana go parteh n playie...n leave de darn lion city!!!
i wana ged outta s'pore asap man....
lifes too hectic n stressful...
i wana be a taitai! lol...
i wana shop n slack for de rest of my life...!!!
ah...dear!!! how i wished u'll turn rich over night... hahaa
dear...i wana travel to all parts of de world with u....
n yuppie...* huggies * love you so much...
thanks for being in my life...
lifes colourful coz of you....
n i wished ure reading this but i know u wont....aiye...
ure even more busy than me....
n no time to go out with u yet...
n de last time we caught a movie together was erm....3 mths plus back....
baby....i wished we have more time for one another...
n yup...before it geds more eee.....
i hafta go....
byeee!!!!

chelsy loves you....

2006-04-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

wad a manly lion...=)

chelsy at her lowest

2006-04-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

i feel so stressed out.....
i really do...why doesnt anything seem to work out fine for me. ..
why doesnt things turn out the way they do...
i wished my friends knew what im going through,
why does it seems absurb to you guys when i told you im serious in a career n is fighting hard for it. im fighting for my car incentive. i only know that i wana succeed in life so much. my objectives n goals are so clear. Even if the whole world forsakes me, ill still be standing.
And for those still with me, i really appreciate it and wana thank you all so much, thanks for living with me, thanks for making dreams come true, thanks for adding colors to my life!

sometimes i just feel too weary, too tired to move on...too tired to walk on....
just too much n heavy for me...life has never been so much stressful before.
neither has life been through so many ups n downs....

for those who dont know, im currently serving my car incentive stage 5...
2 more months to go. and i still needa conquer total of 70,ooo.....i believe i can.
i believe in miracles and i kno wmy belief will never fail me....
walk with me....friends...
if you really take me as your friend,
give me a pat...at least i know you still exist....
i dont need play friends, what i need is true friends....

chelsy at her lowest....

2006-03-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

im tired...
....zzzzzz

...

2006-03-07T00:06:00.000+08:00

i love you baby...!!!!! =)

2006-02-05T10:58:00.000+08:00

heehee... i missed u all loads!!!!
i missed de angpao visiting on fridae at clara place...! shit...
hahaa... but i have no choice...gotta work...not like em... so taitai!!!
anywaes i met up with dem still after dat....lil clara came and pick me up at laupasat! hahaa i was really surprise n shock to see her drive...coz de clara tt i know is a kanchiong spider! hahaa if got jamm or wad how...lol...yup...so i put on de seatbelt even though i was at de back...lol.. so exagarating...yup...but i really appreciatiate her n ah boon sending me back...so far somemore! lol...bukitpanjang is a terror...!!! its not only far...its very veyr far...!!!!...haha yup..
ah boon also going for tp already...seems that everyones faster than me!!! =X
ive smth to sae here...dearie..thanks for everything...i really appreciate de effort u put in to change for the better coz of me...i love you so much...!!! =) cant wait to go coasting with u again! =)

lifes beautiful...
treasure it....
chelsy liu...

2006-01-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

heeheehee... im really surprise...
after a year of ...... we're .........
heeheehee... even though we're from worlds apart...but i believe both our dream will come true...i have de faith tat we can endure til we both make it...
really surprise tt i fell for u too...
very veyr surprise...
nurul was telling me tt i changed...im no longer de old chelsy who only looks at things on de beautiful side...ive learnt how to accept pples weakness n love em... hahaa
n learnt how to love you...=)
lifes beautiful coz of u...

2006-01-14T19:14:00.000+08:00

** * * Chelsy * * **

....i just dropped my phone..n everything just went whoomp!!!... everythings gone...
the screen went blank...n now im unable to access to ny contacts or even check out any messages if there were any....=) erm....yup....how? can anyone give me any solutions...im so screwed...-_-""" brain blank.... sigh...
how???
fark...!!!!!!!!

chels...!!!
so pissed...!!!!

2006-01-10T18:32:00.000+08:00

hmmm....!!!! CYCLONE...!!!
de results not bad though...
yAY...woopie!!!
in de AV room now...
with lazy laoban! hahaa
crapppie..!!!
and i wana kill heng...!!!
heng: i wished i could kill you!!!
gr....!!!!

december..

2005-12-22T09:05:00.000+08:00

* A summary of Chelsy's December *

...ive so many things to blog about...
itz been merely 2 weeks n so many drastic things are happening...

my dearest grandma actuall passed away on de 12thDec...
well, at least i dont feel so upset now compared to de very afternoon i heard de news...
...we're so close...n i never can forget how she used to sayang me...
n de moment i heard de news...i was like so shock that i jumped out of de chalet bed..?
n couldnt accept de fact that things happened so sudden...n remember de moment i walk towards de coffin...how my tears were flowing like a broken tap...and i hugg mom when she was so upset and crying....i dont know... maybe i haven exactly lost someone in life so dear before... its de first time ever in life i cried so hard n so many times... i couldnt stop crying anywhere i went during de 3 days of funeral... n my eyes swell and throat dried.. due too much crying...?
but i can feel shes around... somewhere near me n my mom.. especially when i return home late at 2am plus..checking out on my mom... i feel theres someone else in de room.... i havent mention anything to mom...but i guesses it'll be alright...itz my granny...i think...

"ah chia.." we missed you so much...

...and part 2...last night..
i dont get it...why de hell is AZ avoiding us...shes overboard...n im speechless n hurt...
i cant believe she did so many things behind us... n to think i really trusted her so much...
n i couldnt help but feel hurt n sad...n was crying again last night...til 4am..?
i feel really tired n sored eye now?...n dearest gary actually accompanied me on de phone to wee hours..when i only uttered like 10 words...?? n was crying most of de time...
at least he made me feel alot better...not so sad... thanks pal..ure always there i noticed..
each time i need help...u'll reach out to me totally...n i..appreciate it...really....
......i guess hes as tired right now..anyway i have to leave de com...yea?..
gonna find helen at her shop...n de poor baby with rashes...

a debrief of things that happened in life...
i think i learnt how to take things more easily.. i really learnt that things are not perfect most of de time, and ive witness de dark side of a human being...i guess im learning how to differentiate the angels n the devils in life...i'll life my life beautifully...i will... and i'll never follow de footsteps so someone... shes a total failure in life n work n frens an everything....
n i'll be more assertive in my life.. time aint gonna wait for me to wake up then moved on.. i rather i lived a life full of challenges then something so monotonous n dead.. i choose my life..
i'll keep walking...

2005-12-01T13:14:00.000+08:00

woops... what happened to my blog??
haha...all i did was to anyhow paste some comments..
n yups...now itz so outa shape! hahaa
n whens my blogskin gonna change...
everyones asking me...
well....de answer is....=)
soon...???
hahaa....

chelz

2005-12-01T12:26:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: April 3

You are more than a big ball of energy - you are a big ball of hyper.You are always on the go, but you don't have a type a personality.Instead of channeling your energy into work, you instead go for fun and adventure.Witty and verbal, you can have an interesting conversation with anyone.
Your strength: Your larger than life imagination
Your weakness: You tend to be pretty scattered
Your power color: Lime
Your power symbol: Lightening bolt
Your power month: March

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2005-12-01T12:25:00.000+08:00

Your Monster Profile

Cruel Hitchhiker
You Feast On: Jack and Coke
You Lurk Around In: The Ocean
You Especially Like to Torment: Pop Stars

What's" Your Monster Name?

2005-12-01T12:20:00.000+08:00

You're an Passionate Kisser

For you, kissing is about all about following your urgesIf someone's hot, you'll go in for the kiss - end of storyYou can keep any relationship hot with your steamy kissesA total spark plug - your kisses are bound to get you in trouble

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2005-12-01T12:10:00.000+08:00

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

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2005-12-01T12:07:00.000+08:00

You Aren't Scary, You're Scared

Probably even scared to see how this quiz came out!

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2005-12-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

Your Personality Is

Guardian (SJ)
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

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2005-12-01T11:17:00.000+08:00

itz 1st december...start of a new month...but an ending to de year..
time 's tough...but i will make it yea??
ive been so busy recently??

im so so so sorry...
Apologies to :

ah boon!!!
i know u called me twice...
i have 2 missed calls...
but i didnt call back coz i was too busy to check my phone throughout de night!
n btw i saw it itz like wee hours???
sorry bout it.. i call u later in de afternoon! =)
sorry heehee

Monique!!!
3rd best fren....
*pull ears* i promise i wont do it again!
although u dont mind...but i feel so bad
for not being able to meet up with u n yanting...
coz im really so busy at de end of de month..
dont even have enought time to sleep...
yups..we'll catch up yea..?? n my treat this time..
i'll buy u a tequila? =)~~

Someone...
u...i dont feel sorry or bothered at all..
everytime u'll call me only when u need company or help..
and when i needed help and call u...
u can give me all kinds of excuses...
n pretend to be real concern...
...oh please....ive had enough...
ure so self centred..n all u think n care about is yourself.!!
u dont really bother bout de rest of us...
i think my sis are nice enough to not reject u...
but please stop taking us for granted...
i dont give a shit to u anymore...
n just stop pretending..!!!

yups...n im wondering when il see my loved ones??
my dad...my sises..and erm....yup..
i needa partie more i guess...=)
hahaa...
and tataa...

thats chelsy....

2005-11-18T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hiya...sorry for mia for so long...been pretty bz lately...sigh...only a few months...so much things have changed...man...i just finish my exams yet i feel so weird and bz as usual....
i actually hope to go holidays and yup do the things i wanted to do and slack away...but seems like i didn't plan well enough...
i wanted to meet my fellow frens that i have lost contact with...bt seems like i have gotten tired of planning and lost lots of energy meeting up....
i dun enjoy clubbing as much as i used to but instead enjoyed chilling out with others...
i felt i have begin to be so so so old...and now i didn't have time to balance my life...and i'm still trying to find my happiness in my life and finding myself with somewhere and aim and etc etc...
i love to shop bt now i'm finding only the things i really really need and as usual...i still end up begin a rubbish bin eating the erm herm things ppl usually can't finish cos they are too full...haha...sigh...lots of things to do...lots of things i wanna get...lots of things i wanna see...lots and lots of time i need and hope i can spend some time with my haha maple story?? haha...
yupz...and i really miss poly days...really do...so much activities ...so much fun and so many people i can meet...and all so memorable...especially the days i meet u guys...haha....yr 2 onwards are my best days...can nv forget how u guys accepted me...felt so so glad u noe...haha...christmas is coming....guess this yr might be different for some of us in a way or so...i guess....sigh...a yr is ending a new yr is coming...may the coming days be a more fufilling year for all of us...

P.s hey chelz...do change a doctor if u have to k? most prob the doc u went to only subscribe u painkillers ...bt do get well soon k? whatever it is...u must take the unmost care and rest well and dun chiong soo much ya!! haha u still have ur ear to think of!! and ya i went to the new renovated phuture and zouk...music isn't that wa...u noe what i mean haha

hey gals...sorry for nt meeting up soon....pls pls tell me early if u do have a gathering ...so i can attend and ya...leave time for pretty darling sisters!! muaks!!

pei~

2005-11-11T12:25:00.000+08:00

grrr...!!! wtf is wrong!!! it still hurts like MAD...!!!! ahh....!!!! heLP...!!!!!

sick!

2005-11-09T22:18:00.000+08:00

chelsy shen bing le...
she is having a very bad sore...
her gums are hurting like mad...
her ear drums seems to be badly injured...
she cant mouth her words properly or her jaws will hurt...
n the painkillers which cost her $75 dont seem to work...
n fark de blardie doctors...
i hate doctors...!!!

what happened at the clinic...

me : nurse...my jaws n eardrum hurt..do u think the doctor really can help me??

nurse : it depends.. ( what kinda stupid answer is that )

2 mins later...

doctor : whats wrong miss liu

me : doct..my jaws n ear drum hurts n its so piercing!!

doct : after checking...i think its MAYBE some infection.. MAYBE its abit swollen

me : YOU mean u cant confirm what is it???

Doct : theres no confirm in medical term...

me : then how u know what to prescribe..

Doct rolling his eyeballs...
chelsy using her eyes to diao him...!!!
what the Fuck is wrong with that fucking doctor...
what do u mean by u cant confirm and u cant even give me a proper reason as to what is happening to my ears n jaws...then what de hell do u call yourself a doctor for? and whats de $54 consultation fees...???

he cant even god damm confirm whats wrong with me...n anyhow prescribe medicine to me..!!!
if anything worse happens....he's so gonna die...
...this whole damm jaws aching thinggy caused me to have sleepless nights...
was so damm tired n giddy but cant sleep just beacuse it hurt so much...
de pain was so acute n unbearable... *sobsobz*...

anyway...i'll like to say a very big
THANK YOU
to Gabriel..
he came to my place like 3 am...???
n brought me to the doctor...??
n accompanied me for de disgusting dinner..n medicine..
n ended up sleeping on my sofa for de remaining hour before he leaves for work at 6am???
thanks pal...really appreciate it..
i owe u a dinner kae...
n i bet..he must be smiling right now if he reads this...hahaa

yups... n to all the people that helped in my activities today...
nurul..thanks...youre so sweet...
yiyuan n yvette n janna n shaun n jeremy??
yups...n at least i felt quite LOVED...with all de get well messges...
no idea how they know im ill...but anyway...thanks...=)

while having nothing to do at home...i slept de whole afternoon...n made jelly...=) had porridge de whole day...still cant talk like normal cause de damm jaws still hurt!!! =(
....mm...thats all i wana whine about i guess...=)
n tata people..

n quote for de day!
rest more...
exercise more...
dont fall sick...
why...?
coz docts sucks!!!

chelsy rocks!!! *bleh*

hurt...

2005-11-08T21:40:00.000+08:00

...i seriously think that BGJ is a FUCKING BASTARD!

JERK!!!

2005-11-08T21:30:00.000+08:00

im feeling so giddy now...
gosh....someone help me...
my ear drum n my jaws hurts...
n ive eaten so many panadols...
n drank so much water today
n *burp* my stomach is so filled with h2o...
n *dizzy* *dizzy*...i see butterflies flying around...

mmm...
when will i finaLLy be a CA...
...cant wait for de day...!!!!!
*gr.......!!!*

2005-11-04T11:51:00.000+08:00

mmm...feeling lazy today...
its close to 12 and im still at home lazing around..
gosh...this is bad...im supposed to meet adrain at 1pm at office...
n cal at 4pm n nurels bp at 8pm??..

been catching alot of mid nights lately...
watched DOOM-> Typical guys show?
DOMINO-> Awesomely Terrific!!
FLIGHTPLAN-> Very nice plot...
DUCE BIGALOW-> Damm farnie...
MAPADA-> Very Very dumb show!!!! Not worth de MArnie!!!

wad else...wana watch 40 year old virgin...!!!!
anyone...???
oh...btw i wouldnt watch cello or exorcism of emily rose...
hahaa too freaky for me!!!
im a person with lil guts!!!

yest night when C sent me home, when de cab was reaching my place...
de idiot cab driver suddenly mentioned 2 nights before...a lady actually had an accident n died on de spot...upon hearing..i was like wtF..!!! n freaked out as usual...haha but i kept quiet though.. then C guessed i freaked out n sent me to my door..! haha..so he was disturbing me like mad...say i " scally cat "...!!! hmmph! but guess what...when he went back to de cab...he got a very big shock from de uncle too...!!! haha de uncle appeared out of nowhere at de voiddeck right infront of him but not in de cab...?? okaes...im not very gd at describing but if u hear de story from him...i bet u'll luff ur ass off!!!!

part 2

the very night, which was yesterday...
i had a darn nightmare...i dreamt that i was blardie chased by a freaking lion of human size n i climbed across those green fencing that u can find in ns camps?? i was like wth?
den was at someone house which was haunted...n we all were like trying to do some exorcism...
crap dream....n de characters invlove...
Valerie Chng my diving friend...Vincent, my VE friend, n duno who...
de ending of de dream was de lion thats trying to chase me got eaten up by a Vixen...
though its a crapped n rubbished dream....it freak me out though...
it goes to show...
chelsy, chelsy....
what big guts u have.......

btw i got a new nick...
my new name is SLOW POKES!!!
given by ah heng....
haha cause im always late...
n very verY late....even now...
im supposed to be at raffles place in an hour...
but im still at my desk..
not yet showered...not even anything...hahaa
im so gonna be late....slow pokes...!!!
hahaa tata....

.c.h.e.l.s.y.

blog..

2005-11-01T20:56:00.000+08:00

came home early today...
feels a little lethargic...
n sleepy n mmm...wana spend some time alone...
n on de way home...
was thinking things through...
i guessed ive been a fool...
it seems like ive been made used of and taken advantage of unknowingly...
i dont know if its true...but i dont seem to feel anything special with him..
nth much...just a friend friend feeling...
yups n after that night...i didnt bother keep in contact with him anymore...
de feelings weird... i thought i couldnt be bothered...
but it seems that somehow...soomewhere, he still existed in my mind...

im dying to go for a swim...
i can feel my tummy bulging each day...
n my pants getting tighter man...
this is bad...

oh...will be clubbing tmr..
with suzanne? heidi? lingyu? adeline? n duno who...
but im pretty sure il have fun...
hahaa clubbings always fun...=)
yups..

n peishi...
ill try to change de blogskin design???
its been for a yr since we changed it...
haha but i kinda like de design alot too??
heh...how????
lemme know yea...=)

tata...

.c.h.e.l.s.y.

2005-10-31T20:55:00.000+08:00

should i go fer de halloween tonight???

shit

2005-10-31T20:23:00.000+08:00

oh gosh...i did something wrong on sat....
i wished i could tell somebody...
i guess i cant...
its so dumb...
n i didnt know what de hell i was doing...

.....a crush or a rush....
so yups...dumbest me!!!!

shikes i hate myself!!!

carcarcar

2005-10-29T23:11:00.000+08:00

.....hey its me...!!! itz chelsy....!!!!
hahaa.....=) im blogging rite nw in mr stevens room...
waiting for basil to come...
gonna catch 40 yr old virgin...
mmmm......=)
i just spoke to huiyee, ah boon n amy...
yups...looks like im missing out alot of de gossipings...
n i caught up with clara recently...still as aunty as ever...
ahahaa...yups...n missing peishi...!!!
shes duno mia to where...dun blog anymore...
oh...i met sabrina too...still de same old taitai n lazy as ever..
hahaa n yups.... mmm....

things happen recently...n let me realise de world is not only revolving around me... but also around others...i learnt to take things more easy...control my damm temper...n quit my assy character....ive so much more to go, so much more to learn...n so much more to let go.....

ive....grew.. n matured....
=)....things dun always turn out de way there supposed to be....
in fact...they always dont...
im somehow lost n stuck...
but at least i know wad im doing...
i thnk i know...
n i will ged wad i wan...
yp.
n basils here...tata..!!!

chelsy....was here...!!!

2005-10-13T02:03:00.000+08:00

my friends... i have not forsaken you all...
i missed you all deeply....
ever in my mind...de thing that kept me happy at least for a longer while were u guys... my friends...de best thing in life is to have you all...
i appreciate it....
i appreciate your presences...

2005-10-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

life is somehow not complete without your presence...
where are you...

2005-10-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

fate makes fun of men.

2005-10-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

haven blogg for one thousand years...=)
i missed blogging...=) caz it just means i have time to rott at home...??
okaes...i have gud news...
i finally hit my business manager position...
n yes...starting my car incentive this month...
6 months to go...
i wonder what will de sceptics say after seeing my virgin car???
wondering man..
pple like leo...like joy...like zhipeng??
hahaa n i bet zhipeng will vomit blood after robin hits his car too...?

heehee...lifes not too bad la...
now going for de japan incentive too...=)
n gonna find miyuki in tokyo 4 months later...!!!
mmm....=) i like my life...
i like de way i live my life now...
nobodie can interfere...=)
n thada!!!
nitenites...!!!

a nonsence blog from c.h.e.l.s.y.l.i.u.

2005-09-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

haha....u see i have big feet...and \i already have no shoes to wear!! h

2005-09-15T10:30:00.000+08:00

....seems like i haven blog for a long time...
ive so many things to update...
starting from de 9th sept...

9th sept...
sent my dad to de airport..
dad was leaving for france to work...
for a period of 2 to 4 years,
yups...i really missed him so much...
n i remember my sis telling me not to cry at de airport..
so dat my dad wouldnt be worried...
so we didnt..we controlled..
then when dad was about to enter de departing gates...
he hugg us individually...
n suddenly said..he's home sick...
n later part of de story...i guess its easily figured out...
in case u still dont...okae la! we all cried...

for de past few daes....i suddenly realised how big a role my dad had played in my life...
he pampers me n cares for de whole family.. to me...he's alwaez been a great sampat fren..
we'll often joke around disturbing one another...n occasionally drinking beer n singing karaoke together...we even shop together n snack together..n he pays...=) haa!
yups...so u see... we're reallie CLOSE!!!

n 2 nights ago...1am...when we were about to go to bed...
de phone rang!!!
heehee i knew it was my dad...
yups...n i chatted with him for awhile...
n when he hung up...i began to tear again...
i think i really missed him so much...
n de whole night i didnt sleep a wink...

14th sept...
we rang de bell 5 times...!!!
heehee meaning we submitted 7.5k cash worth of sales...=)
im left with 10,911 to business manager...!!
dad...im sure i wont let u down...
i'll prove to de rest around me...
frens...dont be a frog in de well...
sigh...open up...

n anyway...ive gotten myself a new phone...
de Siemens SF65...
its like a digicam phone...
with de game worms installed in it...
hahaa...i love de game more than i love de phone...

its about 11....robin de pig whos supposed to give me wake up call is still deep asleep!!!
dat pig...!! i wana kick his butt later...!!! ive no means of reaching him man..!!!
okae...i gotta go...
haven brush my teeth...hehee

looking forward to everyday....=)
***chelsy***

just to say...~

2005-09-04T13:01:00.000+08:00

Hiya..chelz...sorry about ur new hp ...bt yup there are better ones in the market! haha...
been in the middle of my own school term now...things are so different...yupz...met some of my frens who are working nw....perception is so different....

people who i knew in the past are not the people i used to know anymore...perhaps its time...perhaps i have changed too...just without knowing....

i really miss poly life...those days of fun, laughter and memories that i have collected thru the 3 yrs despite horrible projects and exams....Uni life is so different...frens dun just pop out and say "hi" to u....things aren't the same anymore...

i noe i'm not studying something that i love the most...in life we can either do something we want and starve our stomachs or do something that can fill our stomach but things that we dun like...and i chose the latter...

i can't stop and change like other people do...i can't quit studying something and jump into another just like that...cos i believe i'm running out of time...time is so short...i noe there are chances to do one really love...bt in singapore alot of things are begin constraint...

Recently heared a song recommended by a fren...feels sad....bt its a pretty nice song....

JAMES BLUNT LYRICS
" You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,'
Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,'
Cause I'll never be with you.

....................................
....................................

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.

pei~

hp lost!

2005-09-03T00:52:00.000+08:00

oh...august's finally over...time flies...but im pretty glad...august was a disgusting month!!! many many bad things happened...n one of which included de loss of my hp...my first most expensive phone...n erm..loadsa memories inside...many precious messages n pictures that i could never briing myself to delete them has been stolen by a fucking ass...!!!

WHO DE FUCK TOOK MY PHONE!!!!

FUCK YOU FUCKER..!!!
DAMM U...!!! HOPE URS GED STOLEN TOO....!!!

DISHONEST ASS...!!!!

but...hehee im okaes already...was very lost initially..coz itz kinda my 1st time losing a NOKIA 7610..!!!..but yup...like mr martin said.." jiuu de bu qu...xin de bu lai..."haha...-.-

oh..but guess wad...de day i lost my phone...i was damm calm...never even curse n swear or cry n yell n scream...i was so quiet...total silence...nth to say...my own fault i guess...n through this incident i noticed smth...VE has trained me into a more calm person...n more rational...i dont cry over spilled milk but think of solutions instead....n how to resolve de prob....how to ged back my contacts n stuffs inside...but i still admit tt i was damm sad still la...very shock n lost to do anything also..hahaa -_-

OH.UPDATES OF LAST MONTH...

i cut n colored n permed my hair...heehee look like a doll now...according to de girls...which country one im not too sure...haha could be china or indian doll...haha will post my pic up if i have a chance...

oh...n i left 14 K to a BM...!!! YIKES...!!! i cant wait to hit bm n ged my freaking car incentive from de company...!!!

MUAHAHAH...

CHELSY LIU IS MAD....

MAD about an AUDI....heeheehee

wait for my guud news..!!!

Ciao babies...

oh yea...n when u sms me..leaving ur numbers rite???

PLS REMEMBER TO LEAVE UR NAME...!!!

IM NOT A GOD..!!!

THANKEW...!!!

hp lost

2005-08-29T20:18:00.000+08:00

i lost my hp....!!!!
it got stolen...!!!!
so if u guys still have my number...do leave me a message okaes...!!!!

posted by chelsy liu rongyan

2005-08-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

i like de guy next door....=)

2005-08-09T01:46:00.000+08:00

wooo hooo!!! ure in self denial...!!! self-pity...!!! self-destruction...!!!..
self-wadeva....my brain is dead...-_-....
im too tired to think...
thinking bout tmr...thinking of de sun...
thinking of tanning...=)...heheeehee...
see how things go...
enjoying my hello-panda now...=)
kids food always taste guud!!! =)
....on de phone with sharon n fangz..
de 2 spastic idiot..yea.... cant hear wad theyre saying..
gonna shower le...

oh..btw i met up with de kukus in school todae...
man...schs reallie nice...hahaa
canteen 4 jap food...library slacking corner...
oh...missed dem much...
took many many pics in sch...hahaa..
very dumb ones...
will post dem up...lazy to blog le...
tataa...

.c.h.e.l.s.y.

2005-08-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

. L.O.S.T .
. chelsadiva .

2005-08-02T22:55:00.000+08:00

in de office now.....
slacking with fangwei....
yups...damm bored...just now marcus mama like detective...ask many many questions...
hahaa....anyway...abit no directions nowadaes....duno what im doing sometimes,
rebuilding my organization now....having to start again...not easy, anyway its all parts n parcel i guess....oh...cant wait to meet wenz n de rest up soon....!!!!!

chelsy . misses . u....

u know who..!!! heeheee

blogblogblog nagnagnag

2005-07-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

....oh gosh...i just read from wenz blog she decided to pull out...
oh mye...im so shocked...-_-
and i feel so demoralised now...
darsan just called me dat he wana pull out too...=(
im quite..or say very low moral...
...i suddenly missed my sis so much....!!!!
miss wenz n chings n etc....!!!!
oh gosh! i wished time could turn back...!!!
i'll study hard and study for de rest for my life i swear...=(
im sometimes so lost...
although i am earning more than peers....doing better than them...
but it seemed dat im never satisfied....!!!
what the...i duno what im blogging anyway....
ciao....
fyi...im blogging right in front of my business group manager...
during my supposedly"working hours..."
see!!! at least....my jobs quite flexible n nice???
heeheee....=)
ciao...

2005-07-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

DEMORALISED!!!

smiling away...~

2005-07-26T00:13:00.000+08:00

Hee...can't stop smiling...been home away ago...and was suprised by a bouquet of sunflowers on my table.... =) jo have apparently sent a bouquet though he is the jungle now digging holes in the soil....haha....Thank you lotsa dear!! Hugs~~~!!

Wish i have a camera phone or something to take photos of it...its a really nice bouquet...with baby breath and other rose looking like flowers with it plus three nice looking sunflowers in the middle....sigh....guess i take a photo when its dried?? cos by then i think i can get a camera phone then?? haha...

haha so damn touched sia...really can't stop smiling....heehee....my sister was touched for me haha that she nearly kapo the flowers haha....okok joking joking....

okok gotta sleep le.....i dun do this openly ya...haha..... love ya Jo!! .... =)

Pei~

2005-07-23T02:51:00.000+08:00

oh..look at de 1st pic...with caiwei...=) guess whos missing out from de piCt..!!!!n apparently deese pics were taken on grad day...=) after de messy furong dan..

oh...i wana sleeep!!!!

2005-07-23T02:31:00.000+08:00

wooo.... *farts* n run....
sometimes i'll ged quite disgusted with myself...
most times...i dont bother...
i dont mind farting n burping around... n dont mind opening my mouth full of food to show pple...think im mad...
oh mye.. a "supposedly" well-groomed young lady...with nice excutive bloose n blazer n heels n neat hair n simple make up is doing tat!!!

okae...ive no idea wads my idea of blogging tonight...
i think im tooo exhausted to think...
my brain is aging...n lagging...
boy...i need theraphy...
i need a getaway....
n i wana go thailand with mei n jimmy so much.....
but yups...its supposed to be their "holiday"...so i cant tagg....
n chings n wenz cant make it n dats too bad...=(

oh wells...met christine for dinner just now...
remember de fair fair sweet n blur gal from de CRM lecture...
de HK exchange student...=) still looking sweet as ever...
but will be better coupled with a bottle of Pearl Ion Lotion from VENTURE ERA!! hahaaa....=) i know chingz n wenz must be rolling their eyes right now...okaes...*fine...*

oh...de month is coming to an end...time reallie flies... damm!!!
n im deprived of PV...
waiting foir miracles...!!!
....................
praying....
praying...
waiting....
knocked-out!

chelzadiva....drowned in dreams...

something missing...

2005-07-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

Came home just now gt a sudden news for me...alittle too sudden...something that i thot i had e time...something that i thot would not happen that soon...a news that my grandpa just passed away...

Just felt...as if something....someone that went suddenly missing in my life...someone that i have seen from young since i was born...someone that i know i can relate with everyone around...someone that is old and fatherly...though i dun alwaz understand when i tok to him...though we may not tok that often...though he can't remember me nw even though he can remember all my other cousins...though he is gone now...to a better place where he need nt suffer in his old age due to his sickness...he gave me memories i can never forget...someone that is part of a family puzzle....someone that i knew who is proud of all e grandchildren he had...from the oldest to the youngest even a baby....

I remember once he was sitting at his favourite rocking chair that all e little grandchildren even me would play with...sitting by his side watching tv and trying to understand his language in teochew...

and he would face my couple months old cousin and say "little china doll" in teochew...while my little cousin would look at him blur blur with my grand father laughing in delight at her.....

e days when my father would tok to him...and all these memories just bring me to think how fatherly he is...begin all thru these years....and seening us as his grand children...

i regretted not visiting him when he was sick last week....on saturday....it was quite a last min thing...i thot i might visit him a few days later....bt it was too late....

i never expect that he would go so soon....i haven't did my part...to visit him when he was around...now that he is gone...the least i can do is be there at his wake...

Haiz....felt as if someone had disappeared from my life...someone quiet and there bt now is gone....no matter how...i hope he is well at what ever place he may be....

Grandpa....i will alwaz remember u...i miss u grandpa....may God be with you where ever u are...

Pei~

2005-07-15T11:48:00.000+08:00

Chelsy 's super long entry!!

oh..itz a lovely friday morning....=) haaa caz i finally have de time to sleep longer...waiting for chingching to reply me... hope we can go thailand together...looking forward to de shopping spree...=) heehee

mmm...watched this "lovey dovey" show last night...damm nice...
but de ending kinda sad...de couples broke up caz they were too busy with one anothers life..n taking one another for granted...de girls quite dumb n temperamental...n initiated de break up out of anger....only to realise later on...she misses de guy soo soo much and loved him deeply...and by de time she decides to search for him...he's MIA....nobody could find him...caz he kinda died in a foreign land...sobsobz..n when she found out...itz kinda too late...n yups. sobbing away..
de END..hahaa...

n it kinda reminded me of de "out of anger or sudden" break up thing that i done to erm...n erm...heee...i believe it happened to other girls as well...only to realise a week later...we do feel for that guy n surprisingly in love with him...n trying hard to ged over him...yups...
newaez...screw de guys....
i noticed de common thing bout almost all de guys i know...
the're like super nice n sweet to de girl they wana wooo...??? but once they actually ged together...de guy goes back to his normal self...which sometimes can be quite saddening or hurting to de girl...mmm.. n he changed..he becomes so cold...whos fault is it...
is it de guy...for being like that..?? or de girl who expects tooo much...
majority of de girls would love to be pampered n loved like a little princess in their lovers eyes...n sometimes...is it too much to ask for...

why do pple ged married...? what makes dem feel that this is gonna be de right match...???...n how come relationships neveer last for pple like me...hahaa..im just wondering..erm....im too difficult?? nah...im not...those guys who dated me before just aint up to standard..!! hahaa... yups... *wink* n de same goes for mabel n my kuku jie meis...

13th July..Grauduation @ NP...
oh...guess de only reason we went's for our frens...=)
met up with chingching, wenwens, amy, tingtinz, clara n peipeiz n more....so we were having fun...hahaa n a leapord never change its spots... how true!!!! during de seminar speech thingy...me ching n wen sneek out n headed for canteem one for tau suan!!!! lol....n it seemed dat ders only de 3 of us in de canteen dressed so nicely...hahaa lols...
of coz we had fun....missed de good old daes....studying can be fun... coz itz only studying....n of coz de gossiping sessions n stuffs...
took couple of picturs...thers one that look extremely good... me n ching n wen one..hahaa i'll ged it posted up soon....

13th JULY night time..Seminar at Conrad Hotel "VENTURE ERA"..
woo...was most interesting n good....=)
loved de culture n stuffs in de co...love de eductaion...
its not like some normal networking company in de industry!
SERIOUSLY speaking...im sceptical of ALL NETWORKING companies...except VENTURE ERA...i really haven seen such a good culture n good educated force in de company..ive seen a few tt really sucks n out to cheat money!!! n now i understand why some pple r so sceptical...coz of de cheats in de market!!!!!!!!

okaes...this is a reallie long post...=) needa go pack my room soon..
my house's going thru a big revamp..!!! must help...!!! yups...
hope to see all my palz soon enuff yea...=)
*dearies* give me a beep soon man!!...
see ya...
tata...

sighs*

2005-07-10T08:10:00.000+08:00

ok..guess ur noe that i been going to school for one week now...and hw is it?? i think it really sucks....besides learning four modules which i actually took from poly....i have to face them again plus other sucky ones which clara and me have been trying to figure out what the hell they meant....

Classes are like 3 hrs everyday....and yups four times a week...but on top of that are 8 projects group and individual enough to kill us all plus exams right at the end of it all....

ok....and the people i shan't elaborate more...sigh....u dun get alot of people wearing shorts and slippers there thats for sure....and yups get an idea?

heehee....finally gt my mp3!!! ipod shuffle....haha at the very cheap price!!! haha!! and hoping to get my new hp too!! bt well....my books come first sobs....

been shopping alot lately....man my fingers are itchy....once starts hard to stop!!! bt with my dear Jo around....geez...funny thing is i seldom really shop around when he is around....haha dun ask me y....cos i feel alittle guilty spending so much in front of him?? hee....so yups....been trying to really budget myself....and well...guess shopping time is cut down by alot due to work and schl and socializing with my old pals which i been trying hard to.....hope everything will be well till e holidays....? yups...really hope so....

Pei~

alittle...

2005-06-24T21:08:00.000+08:00

Been looking at e past...looking at others and myself...and its scares me that time have changed so much out of people...as it is the reality...i noe...yes and thats the fact of life...yes and that i also noe...

But what scares me is how much times have changed, and how much people around me have changed including myself...even friendships...relationships...and different phrases of life one will go thru when one reaches a certain age...it scares me...i'm only twenty one...and i have so little time though is fast...it will eventually reach me...by then i might be worthless??

I'm not begin paranoid...bt just think hw much ur frens have changed around you...once how close u and a group of friends used to be...how happy u once were...and how is ur relationship now...things ain't the same anymore...i finally understand that frens come and go..though some are still kept thru the hardest of times....bt the relationship changes for the better or worst...

I used to think if i had the same frequency as them...and kept in contact...the relationship will nv changed...i used to think if u treated ur frens with the most sincere heart...they will treat u back with the same courtesy...i used to think if i give trust to them...they will value my trust and treated me the same...i used to think if i given my word to what i promise...they will do the same and not betray me...and last of all...i used to think my frens will value the same way i value them...but alas thats not how it is used to be...

the frens that i believed that will be with me...aren't there anymore...at least ok...a couple that i noe ..my childhood frens and some that i met along the way who are are truly a blessing...e ones that truly wanted to be frens with...even with my truest and most sincere heart discard me and looked down on me with disdain and shame...i did nothing wrong...y treat me so? the frens that i gave my trust to...betrayed me and even indirectly burdened me things that i should not have....the people i thought i valued the most...the people that i treasured the most...sometimes just taken me for granted....

thru the years...and i really mean thru the years even right from young...from the bullies that bullied me, the people who think they are good enough to outcast me and to the people who actually think i'm that weak and nt even gd enough to fit in...and begin thru it all created a new perspective for me...

I didn't need to give a damn to those who didn't care...i didn't need to give concern who those who treats u like some stranger and outcast you from the moment u see them...i make sure the people who give me shit will take the same kind of shit they give me...i won't be what i am in the past...just let it go and have what u so call peace...i will fight just to have the rights that i deserved....

i'm no longer the same person again...in secondary school...

pei~

alittle anxious...

2005-06-23T01:55:00.000+08:00

haha Jo is coming out todaE!!!! haha okok i'm nt particularly excited...bt kinda anxious...cos its like after 2 weeks inside...u noe what i mean...u wonder if he grown fatter or fitter...darker or fairer...more pudgy or handsome?? haha

And ya...it feels like i haven't seen him in two years...and nt to mention i feel anxious cos while he is having his fit training inside...i seem to be putting on pounds...getting fatter according to clara...sobs..(she alwaz said i grown fatter!!) and getting uglier and haiz...darker eye rings due to lack of sleep...man..how to face him sia...its like hey ur gf just gt alittle nt so nice looking when u went for some transformation...argh!!! and nt to mention flabbier at my tummy!!!

okok i noe i should get some beauty sleep...except that i can't really sleep cos well..i'm kinda anxious...and it feels like u noe dating for the first time that kind of feeling?? Dunno what u gonna react when u see him that kinda stuff?? nt that we haven't been toking...bt its e mere 20 mins every nite...much less when a guy is chasing u....isn't it?? haha...

man....how how how?? i dunno what to wear...i dunno how to style my hair...or say i dun have anything to style..haha...eh...dunno what i'm gonna say...hey i can't be blamed....cos its my first time having a bf who is in e army....

pei~

2005-06-21T15:38:00.000+08:00

Chelsy Liu

You look like a stereotypical bimbo outside but its a different story inside. You're a nice, simple, proud and straightforward person who believes what you're doing is right. You don't change people, and you love them for who they are. Your primary goal in life is to be happy, next to being pretty. You have your detractors but you don't let them bring you down. You go out of your way to help others out even before they ask, and for that they love you.

*just got dis from jessi's blog..*

stereotypical bimb?...mmmm sounds true!

2005-06-21T15:07:00.000+08:00

oh *yay*....im feeling way better...=)
almost thought im gonna die last nite....
having reallie severe gastric...with piercing pain...
and throwing up n diarhoea....and then i realised...it could be food poisioning...off i went to de 24hr clinic with my loveliest sis for some relieve of pain...i couldnt even walk...it was so painfull...i swear..!!!
i felt as if someone just stabb my tummy...!!!

n to de annoying part..."most of u know im scared of jabs eh..?"
this arsehole doctor...was giggling away when he jabb n i trembled n screamed...FREAK!..n i couldnt move aft he jabb me...felt numb.. n no strength..n fainting...n he mentioned some pple might feel giddy after a while...depending on individuals...guess what??? my vision went zoom! i couldnt even read my phone messages...n i was semi unconscious already..!!! n de lousy, painful, horrifying jab effect only lasted like awhile!!! n gastric hurt thru de night...although not as bad...but i couldnt rest properly..n kept moaning thru de nite..."according to my sis"...which i cant remember...n now my arm aches...n no appetite for anything...
still a lil blurish...

now im having a lil phobia for food from subway...n fruits from laopasat..
dats de only thing i had yest...n wellos...good thing anyway..i lost 3 punds..!!! hahaa...think tts de only comforting thing!! lols...

not to forget my goal for this month!!!!

TOP MANAGER!!!!
FIGHT!!!!!
Chelsadiva!!!!

e movie....~

2005-06-21T02:48:00.000+08:00

Haha watch a midnight movie todae...and its a korean movie...:My Boyfriend is Type B" haha...actually is a cute movie cos though i have to read the subtitles...it was rather entertaining...as u can see from the title of the movie...its a love story that is quite touching and alittle meaningful at the end.

I shall describe alittle...its about this girl who believes in destiny to meet "e One"...and she did meet except this guy is alittle too much...such as when they actually went dating such as watching a movie...the guy was drinking a packet wine...the girl was interested and asked if she could have some....and the guy said...: " Sorry i have none for you..."

Haha of cos the girl was the nice nice type and didn't said anything...once when the bf performs a magic trick and takes money from the audience which are her frens...he makes them disappear and when they ask for their money back...he said i only noe how to make them disappear when i learnt how to make them appear i return them to u...

And of cos his gf doesn't have money at that time and he made her credit card disappear...

One of the best part was as his gf's hp is spoilt, he told her: " lets buy u a hp..." and they did went in chose a hp and when the cashier ask card or cash....the guy asked the gf the same question....and in the end the gf paid for the hp....

the girl broke her shoes and fell...the bf gallently said i buy u a new pair...and end up going to a cobbler to glue the shoe back for her....

And above all...whenever they eat... the guy alwaz ate the food eg...giving the gal a can of drink and when she open...he takes them back to drink...and she cannot interfer with his life...cannot ask him about anything...and advise him what to do...

And all of these traits they group them under people who is blood type B...which is noe to be sturborn...and humourous...good talker and obsessed with something they like...and of cos lots others...

the final break came though and they both broke up....but despite the time they were separated...they nv really gotten over each other...near the end...as the guy is known to have a phobia of buses as he was nearly killed by one when he was young...he conqured his fears by running after the bus when the girl ran up the bus...he went up and clutch the railings with his dear life just to locate the sit beside her...
... the thing is at the very end...they guy changed his sturnborn ways for her... he become more caring and more understanding...and becos he loved her so...he decided to run after her even his scared of the bus...

its really touching at the end...pure saying ur won't believe...they even spoke of destiny and stuff...its just that if u are really destined to meet someone...its also up to u whether u want to hold on to the opportunity or let it go...opportunity only come once and it doesn't come twice...and e person u meet may not be the person of ur dreams...it may be someone different from ur expectations...we can't meet a perfect one to have a perfect relationship...but we can make a perfect love with someone imperfect....it doesn't matter how much u give...but how much u truly understand...

pei~

alone...~

2005-06-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

Jovin went NS today....in the morn...sigh*..... heh nv knew i might felt this way....
sent him to Tekong with his parents and brother today plus a gd fren of ours...heh it was a pretty interesting trip...see all e facilities...at first sight of the place ...haha i thought it was a chalet! haha cos it really did sorta look like one facing the sea....
saw the place...e training area...where they train all e soliders to be fit...haha i felt if i was a guy...i would have chiong all e way man...after all its ns...for once in my life...i would have finally transformed into a real man finally...haha and serve and protect the country and my loved ones...man...suddenly feel like joining them too...haha ya i noe i'm crazy...bt its just the rush of honour if ur noe what i mean...
Ate at the canteen for lunch...geez super carbo and protein...mmm....can say a balanced diet cos they have everything? let me describe...i had whip potato...rice...drumstick...small slice of i think pork...and half a corn...soup...toufu for dessert...and a cup of drink...and additional bun of bread which i didn't eat...hey i'm nt a big eater ok...bt its what everybody got including parents...haha...
And yup...after lunch...we have to leave the soon to be man at the island for training for mmm 3 weeks? and yupz...they lights out at 1030pm? and i was working till like 1000pm? ya...tok like for 15 to 20 mins...sigh...alittle nt used to be alone especially going home...
mmm....just needa abit of adaptation for one yr plus ba...haha a free soul for now...heh...

missing away...pei~

sighs*

2005-06-08T01:33:00.000+08:00

haha...i hope i can do something to the blog too....just that i have some things i needa settle as yet....haha....
Sigh....Jo is going holiday in NS....yeah....been buying so many things for NS like after shave lotion...glucose...biscuits...haha...sixty over items into a small bag...haha sounds excting though...like some camp overseas....
if ask me if i be missing him...i would be...after all we usually see each other most of the times except for 1 or 2 days apart...nw its like 2 weeks plus...except if i get to see him next tues for his medical appointment that is...and during that period of time...i be a free bird till he booked out?? haha....well been trying to spent some time with him before he enters...and hopefully he be alrite inside and losing some flabs inside....heh...

missin....pei~

chels had her fever!

2005-06-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

oh...smthings reallie wrong with my blog..=)
peis...hahaa do smth bout it alrite??

im freakingly bored to death at home with nth to do...
nt tt i have no job...but i got myself a freaking fever dat doesnt seeems to recover, a blardie nose tt cant stop tearing...n an awful throat which leads to my disgusting voice...=( yups...

pretty bad...been reading n sleeping n reading n sleeping...
n i feel like crap..my head wana split open...
n i dun have blardie strength to ged out of my hse....
....sobs....
btw its sharon pehs birthday today!!!
*sis*...happie birthday...!!!
sorrie tt i cant join u at ur cake throwing session...!!!
i lurve ya babies..!!! =)

heehee..

chelz with her spastic fever....

updates...~

2005-05-31T01:25:00.000+08:00

ok...noe sometimes this blog sucks...with all e unwanted popups and stuff...bt anywayz...will update...(eh...some time later...) when have the time ...haha... Haha...been to phuket with some frens a week back...despite my parents warnings of the unseenable....bt still it is a great place to have a holiday...did alot of things like swimming, massage...shopping and haha of cos some sight seening around the place...despite it begin a small island...suprisingly we didn't manage to travel all of it in 4 days....and well...things ain't cheap either....T-shirts can cost 20 bucks....and it look so normal....and pasa malam....haha have the best buys of cos...Adidas brown tote bag original just cost 12 singapore $$ !! and of cos e all gal's fav...inner beauty (bras) brand Triumph just cost 20 singapore $$!!! haha....sadly i didn't manage to have enough $$ on the last day to buy more...if u ask if it was really real..it is cos it is in the shopping centre...and its a small one....and for all the days i only manage to go to one shopping centre...why...? cos i haven't got enough time for all....but well...if there is a next time...i really won't mind visiting that place again...cos there are really some things that i haven't really tried there like mmm.....say diving there though kinda ex and mmm....some horse riding and perhaps fishing?? haha...too much to say....the pictures will do e toking..... (",Pei~~

2005-05-31T01:20:00.001+08:00

and last of all....e flight home....

2005-05-31T01:20:00.000+08:00

ATV...i forgot what it is called...but great ride nevertheless...

2005-05-31T01:19:00.000+08:00

abit blur....our great seafoood dinner....that also might be e cause of my sore throat...haha we even had big lobster!!

2005-05-31T01:18:00.000+08:00

me and jovin.....we r at Patong beach....

2005-05-31T01:17:00.000+08:00

dun mistake...this isn't e hotel we stayed...bt one of the hotels nearby....holiday inn....

2005-05-31T01:16:00.000+08:00

hee... taken at a massage room...hey...private room ya...hee...

2005-05-31T01:15:00.001+08:00

the view of outside of the restaurant we dined...

2005-05-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

feeding e fishes around us....yupz....(",

2005-05-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

beautiful ya....? some clouds are raining on islands opp...suprisingly the island we were on...nv rained...heh..

2005-05-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

e island off phuket...clear waters....and white sandy beach...haha...

2005-05-31T01:11:00.000+08:00

haha...the speedboat...at the jetty...

2005-05-31T01:03:00.000+08:00

a bit blur....e same place at night...

2005-05-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

the place at phuket Fantasea...the place where we were suppose to watch a play...the whole thing cost 3 billion baht to built!!

2005-05-28T10:43:00.000+08:00

*** Chelsy ***
seems like i haven blog fer a long time...=)

yups...n wondering howz de life of my other khakis rite now...

i know wenz got a IGs sales job...

chingz at de CPF board...

aMy n Sab at StarHub..?

Yiyi...im not very very sure...

Claras...head over heels..??? *luffz*

PeiShi...not Too sure if shes still alive... "haahaa" only knew she went honeymoon...think she can ged married be taitai le..-_-"

hehee...feeling hillarious todae...=)

am reallie glad to see my phone going for a makeover...

hahaa meaning i got a new phone n dump my old...

its 7610 btw...i know i laggin..but i reallie like tt...

ers...meeting up a good old pal later...=)

n..having stm currently....

shall end here...

oh btw..my life has been fullfilling n good...

never knew life could be this good...=)

*yupz*...see ya pals...

2005-05-13T11:45:00.000+08:00

oh..got this from wens blog....scary...haha its a lil accurate... especially at de back...yups...

Your Birthdate: April 3

Being born on the 3rd day of the month is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life.
The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental.
There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude.

You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression.
Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing.
You are energetic and always a good conversationalist.

You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters.
You are affectionate and loving, but sometimes too sensitive.
You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

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2005-05-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

*yawns*...stretch myself....apparently i just got up from bed...

heeheee....guessed i must have went home too late yea..??? over tired now..haa n supposed to make a trip to my diving school later....erm..? we'll see about it...

oh...btw i got home in a super classis BMW last night...heeheeh...

nice car...nice music...=) erm..yups...de rest i cant reveal...heeeheee...

wad i wana say...

i think life is filled with ups n downs...

yups...sometimes...u ged so high..everything so smooth...

n de next minute...everything falls back to square...

*sobz*...is life really like tt...???

chelz - still yawning... ;P

dumb of me...

2005-05-07T14:43:00.000+08:00

man...really stupid of me..i actually miss the interview for a job in sentosa!!! I told the person i can't attend cos i was in a schl camp and when i tried to call back to ask for the interview...i can't reach them....stupid HR department....wats the pt of having a office number when they can't even be reached!!!
Well, at least the camp was quite a success i must say...haha camp chief seems happy...so everything must be pretty good...haha and heared lots of funny and weird incidents in schoolfrom freshies...can't imagine it actually happen...this was what i heared happen

1) One freshie actually said that she is going to fetch a fren from a bustop and busted a camp crew who is having blister on his feet by suddenly dashing away from him to the bus stop and flag a cab and hop into the cab and went off, leaving the poor camp crew there stunned.

2)One girl who behaves like a tai tai actually put eyeliner in a camp and carries a lugguage. This girl claims to fracture her leg and refuse to allow the first aider to touch her leg because her shoes are new....

3)This tai tai also asked someone to help her carry her luggage and told the person pls dun dirty the handle....

4)And last of all the tai tai was waiting the doors of the lift to close so that she can see whether her eyeliner is running at night....

5)AND supposedly the same girl actually asked one of the F&B crew: "excuse me, can you pls clean the table...its dirty..."

hey the F & B crew aren't waitress to clean tables, and there happens to be a bird shit on the table so what my fren did was : " the table cloth will come later, you can clean yourself"

6)and the same girl actually with her bimbotic group of frens was laughing at me, how i know cos i was right in front of them when the looked at me and laughed when i tried to close an igloo which was catered for the freshies to drink. I really felt like slapping them, so i just gave a very cold stare at them and do my things. Just imagine providing food for 600 freshies on the first day excluding camp crew and the bimbos was actually laughing at me on the first day make me feel like taking the container of water to hit them.

and the last of all the result of the camp was a slightly more toned body cos i was walking and climbing stairs and carrying things from 8am in the morning to past 12 midnight at night. heh but of cos with good memories to carry home...

resting away at home....pei~

nitey nite nite

2005-05-07T01:54:00.000+08:00

oh hi guys...*chelsy bows and says hi!*
heeheee...=) crap...
so tired now...going to bed soon...
basically todae was rather nice...
went for 2 unclosed appt...yeps...
n qiute happie tt my guys r very motivated...
including nur,cheng n heng...=)
yeps...we will ged there...hahahaa

ohs...newaes...
girls...next time dont ever try to mention tt asshole TYSON n me...yups...
hes one big spastic idiot n he pissed me off...wad an ass....darn hypocrite i feel...
yeps..dont associate we 2 again k...a shame to be his fren man....

yeap....hope to find some time for deepblue..."hope to"...i think ricky is so gonna kill me....=Z for being such an ass...yea...

yups...neeada go to bed...
currently on de phone with fwen...
yups....just a fwen....
heehee...

nitey nite nites...chelsy

2005-05-03T11:06:00.000+08:00

chelzawhinie

wished i could join dem in de school camp...but cant yea...
too many obligations n commitments le...
cant just leave de dive shop likett n my guys....
must call ricky soon n check when can i finish my classes...
lazy divemaster chelsy...
yups..

Yea...i promised my BM dat i'll clear 10K this month regardless what..!
wont let my guys down....

oh...for some pple...
pls dont try to be stupid....
how can things be illegal when de govt approves it n stuffs...
ild appreciate dat u guys keep quiet if u dont know anything...
u trying to stand out n speak out only make yourself seem ignorant.
ive nothing personal against u...just tt i cant believe that this kinda silly words actually came out from ur mouth...never expected u to be like tt..
kinda disappointed in you anyways..

burnt...

2005-04-27T17:26:00.000+08:00

Sitting in SU...accompanying someone who is taking ages to finish his stuff.....yawnz* haha and "sun bian" blog also...someone say i nv blog le...so must write something....haha
Been terribly burnt while suntanning at a resort/chalet....sob~ can't even move my hands up to adjust the air con in the bus...face red , shoulders red...and back red...the only place not red other than elsewhere ...my butt...
Can't even move the top of my body...i wonder can i even club tonight with the rest...with my burnt sensitive to the touch...and squeezing with ppl....mmm....how sia......?
So many prezzies to buy...and bdays to attend...hahaha....mmm better get a good job before i really eat grass....sisters out there take care ok?? Got time catch up again ya?? mUAKS!

Ouching away......Peiz...

2005-04-26T02:44:00.000+08:00

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2005-04-26T02:25:00.000+08:00

foreplay before bedtime!!!! heeheees

2005-04-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

nite nite everyone...=)

2005-04-26T02:07:00.000+08:00

groovie chick...=)

latenites...

2005-04-26T01:53:00.000+08:00

sleeping late again....*uoops* very unhealthy...
yups...n had so much chockies todae....
bad bad...ultimately bad for health..n turning into an big fat ass sooner or later..cham..!!!

waiting for my hair to dry again...sipping nice mint tea... listening to de radio...
was just thinking bout my kuku mates from sch...sigh...wonder how are dey??
met chingz n choonmei at laopasat though...n wenz n tingting at raffles place mrt...haha dey went to look for a job...usually ill recruit pple like dem...
but seems dat dey wont be willing to tryout VE again....how can i ever convince dem???......

n it seems to be dat im so lost from my past.... so "away" from my frens...
so lost from diving...so lost touch with de lunch time pickouts n ktv sessions n gossiping sessions....i missed dem so much....n de reason is im trying to strive for my career here...n i reallie hope my friends understand....
i miss tanning...diving n volley...my all time fav...

nevertheless...i know my frens will support me no matter what...they will understand my stand n support me??? liek mabel...??? though we hardly catch up...but deep in...we know we're best frens...n will always be there no matter what...true frens dont have to meet everyday...for they know...right in their heart....their always together...thanks babe...for ur understanding...

n to de kukumalians...seems dat i missed out another YUMCHA session with u guys on sat...my moms fault lo...hahaa...yups...hope to see ya guys on weds night k??? esp peis n sabs n wens n chings....=)

meanwhile...i do my best in wadever im doing....
i'll prove pple wrong.....n kick de ass of pple who puts me down....
i will....not let mr steven n tina down...yups....
de torchlight in life when blackouts occurs....

*looadsa question marks*
chelz

chels...nagnagnag

2005-04-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

peipeis...u dont seem to blog anymore eh???....

sigh...itz another monday...n de clock seems to tick so fast???

im another week older? hahaa..

im crapping again....yups....

sigh...these few daes been quite bad....waited for sullaiman til 3.30am last night just to ged de freaking papers done...? n poor salleh had to wait with me...

while we both ged bitten by de desperate mosquitoes....n Mr steven even more cham...must send us home...n bet he's so damm tired...could see his eye bags...

yups...tts whye...Mr Steven rocks...hahhaa lols...

*gosh* so sleepy...shall wait for my hair to dry first...

yups...i have this *star* thinggy at orchard tmr...lols...so stupid... how did i ged myself into this...sigh...yups..n working at 3 pm...yawnsyawns...i wana sleep soon....!!!!

ohs...its monique 's birthday btw...

happie birthday sweets!!!!

i lurve ya loads!!!!!!!!

stay chio forever..

de hotest chick eva..hahaaa

btw...wens n all agreed to club on weds? Black...??? hahaa free flow free entry?? yups...peis...go okaes...!!! oh btw...last weds met mr izzac...yups...idiot him...went to tell tina n all dat i dress too "lil" n stuffs...*kick him*....

was so so anyway...quite screwed in fact...caz we went to black first....but due to ignorance of chelsy,alison,huifen who didnt have their Ic with dem...we changed location to phuture...n apparently at de wrong timing caz they were having some competition which sucks big time...yups...only til 1am? n it seems dat wens frens were only interested in drinking n not dancing...???

n my dancing khaki peis was not around...so i was rather bored...????!!!

n ended up at newton eating carrot cake...yups...n i reached hom eat 2 plus???

lols...first time reach home so early aft clubbing!!!! *sobsobz*..

peis...pls come on weds...else i rather not go le...hahaa dont wan de same incident to happen againman!!!!

[ c ] h e l z Z z . S i m p L Y . l O V e S . f l O W e R s .

2005-04-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

quite coincidentally accurate though....from vals blog...
You want to be regarded as an exiting and interesting personality able to persuade others to comply with your beliefs and ideas. You are charming and able to influence other people who come into your sphere of influence. You like mental stimulation and you are the sort of person who is prepared to 'try anything once'. Your confidence is so much so that others are often swept away by your enthusiasm.
You 'need to be needed'. As an idealist you are intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to you. If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence.
You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.
You are experiencing more than your fair share of stress following an acute disappointment. This may be the result of subconscious conflict between hope and necessity. The tension that you are experiencing following your unfulfilled hopes have given rise to anxious uncertainty. You have no doubt that things could get better in the future and so you refuse to make the necessary essential decisions. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decisions, you are likely to vacillate and concern yourself with trivialities of little consequence.
Sometimes one fears that its not worth formulating new ideas and projects because whatever you seem to have done in the past has never worked out and you are tired of, as they say, banging your head against a brick wall. No one seems to care. So now you are trying to get away from it all by withdrawing into a 'fantasy land' but unfortunately 'fantasy land' is just that and sooner or later you will have to return to reality so why delay the inevitable? When you do return, you will find that the situation is not as tough as perhaps you thought it was.

Click here to take the test again now

2005-04-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

sigh...im feel so useless in life sometimes...
sigh...can someone direct me and guide me in life...
life sucks for der moment...
but it seems i have no choice hah???
nth much to choose from...
only hope i find my source of relieve...
and see him soon enough and often enough to help me..
help me up when i fall...

sigh...im falling....

+ still holding on to a lil hope.. + cheLz +

2005-04-15T11:09:00.000+08:00

oh gosh, i feel so wierd now.think im a very emotional person.something happened at deepblue, something very serious, and things will never be de same again.this im pretty sure, and i as a 3rd party have no choice but to watch it happen.went back to the dive shop to get my stuffs, felt so heavy hearted and so wasted for everthing... everything that came such a long way, and only to be destroyed in a moment.its really shocking to receive such news. and i kinda cant accept it, not yet.haven gone back for so long, missed de pool n classes n tanning sessions n stuffs...but finally have time to go back, only to pack my belongings...its really sucha waste.we're leaving.. im so gonna miss bigsplash n stuffs...and sito and mark and eileen n de good old days. so much has changed since i last went back.and il miss blading with sito to de food centre n miss de slow blading with leen. sometimes...i really wonder why pple can change so suddenly n overnight...and why does pple only learn how to treasure things after they lost them.why is life full of regrets.why isnt life always satisfying and fulfilling???chelz is so filled with queries n doubts...

chelz.misses.original.deepblue.always.

sito,mark,leen leavign dbs!!! sobsobsz

2005-04-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

im so tired...when can i hit my MM...=(
n more shocking news i heard today....
Mark n Sito n Leen left DeepBlue...my diving school...
yeps...feel so not used to it suddenly n stuck n weird...
coz im a deepblue divemaster! but it was sito who brought me out to the diving industry, trained me and groomed me...n its all his credit for what i have today..
no sito = no divemaster chelsy. besides that, he taught many things n lessons i have to learn in live, taught me how to adapt and live life the hard way, encourages me to excel and work hard, and motivates me to strive for de best i could have...n de reminder of being a millionaire n stuffss....
Sitos been a real big brother to me...he probably doesnt know i actually hold him in such high respect...

Remember...de late nights where i have my lessons, n him asking pple to send me home, make sure im safe??? n remember him n mark always disturbing my thermometer character n checking out my new bfs n stuffs... n remember going for dinner on sitos bike...like his younger lil sis...n remember painting weight belts with him n blading always...which i reallie enjoyed...
theres so much so much more things in my memories i have of them...
so much i enjoyed and so much more i thought would come...n ive reallie tried to find time to go deepblue to find them for catching up n lessons n stuffs... but before i even have the time...i received de shocking news...very very shocking news... whats gonna become of de future deepblue... n how bout sito n marks new shop... n how bout de rest of the instructors n divemaster tts so closed to sito n mark...trauma..im going through... i reallie dont know..

n eileens gonna join sito...which im quite shock...cause shes related to ricky? but i guess, sito's been de real leader to us since we joined deepblue as crew?? rickys always in dubai..n never closed to us??? *gosh*...so im supposed to complete my divemaster at deepblue now asap...? get certified n maybe join dem....??? duno... i reallie duno man...

cant think anymore...feel so tired...lethargic...-_-....
i feel sorry for ricky...could tell he sounded abit "pretend things r normal n happy" way...yups...tts what i sensed... try not to be involve in this anyway...

C = Confused Chelsy

leadership training rox

2005-04-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

de leadership training finally ended...
yeps...itz reallie cool...being blind folded again n stuffs...
haha now eugene and i can run with our eyes closeD???
yeps...serious...hahaa cuz we were running around today with de rest...??
lols...and nora is sucha blur cock...lol...damm funny..
"i will not let laoban down"...from someone like her...impressive anyway...yeps.. and i can do it too....=)

ohs...was a lil disappointed why im not a Focus person...=( couldnt focus n lost to octavius? then couldnt focus hard enough to taekwando dat pencil...
n apparently..im one of de only few with de reallie bad orhh chee finger...
*check out my fingers man* u'll ged what i mean...!!!
but why de rest can break it but not me...=(..*yups*...
nvm...will try again soon...but must wait for my swelling to subside..lols...
yups...tired n stuffs...

miss petty chelsy blogged again...!!!!

leadership training

2005-04-10T00:35:00.000+08:00

wooo....today was fun lars basically...
underwent a leadership training n yups... its great!!!!
i was first blind folded, stuck with ear plugs so i cant hear? and biting on to a chopstick so i cant speak...basically there was no communication throughout...yups..with de rest n led into circles where i'll losemy orientation n become a blur cock? haha then supposed to feel my way to the showroom taking some path tt i never took before??? felt damm lost??? but it kinda lightened up de spirit u have in ur bod n soul? coz..when ure left with nth...uve only urself to depend on...uve got ur instincts tt wont go wrong...=)

dont know what im talking bout la okaes...lols...
yups...and had some kuku focus game where i lost to octavius... tt idiot... yups.. n kana disturb by yianlings n lky etc after tt....damm paiseh loh de whole thing!!!

then de entire 80++ of us headed to laopasat for dinner where we created loadsa chaos n attracted loadsaa weird eye stares... free satay know...=) by de BMs..?? Business Managers..??? *yums*...'

n poor cheewei waited 3 whole hours for me at de showroom... *sorrie -_-*
end of everything...happily walked to busstop where i was disturb by some satay man on de way...n guess what...i sprained my ankle...when i didnt notice the hole in de kerb..wtf..=Z..yups...then met octavius n kelvin at busstop..
they're reallie crappie la kae..hurhurhur...n stupid kelvin...ask me to becareful... lol...becareful of big color wolf like u arh? haha ...
tmrs got another session by boss...=) my idol..*lolx*..
i hafta go..

* nitey pretty babes n hunks * chelsadiva *

Just cut my hair...

2005-04-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

haha....i just cut my hair...and erm i looked kinda punk though...and alittle auntie at the same time...haha...just kinda nt used to it...
mmm...feels weird to reach adulthood....seems like 21yrs of life just flew past before me and last yr's bday just seem like yesterday?? Haha must thank everyone who welcome my independence day...haha...especially my sisters...thanks for begin with me all of the 2 yrs...u peeps brought special memories to me that i can nv forget....and of cos Jo...who heh brought me so many chocolates i think i can easily gain 3 kgs all at one nite at the chocolate buffet...hahaha... and begin with me despite my mood swings and troubles i had...dunno where i can find a sweeter person?? hee...
Graduation feels weird unlike from pri or secondary school...aimless and lost and dunno what to do...just know i need to study more and achieve more in life...i want to learn more...i want to see more and i want to achieve more...just feel i have no time...trying to be a better person...trying to change my bad habits and my bad temper...time fly just too fast....but i dun seem to run fast enough...

Peishi~

2005-04-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

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chels bdae!!!!

2005-04-05T00:47:00.000+08:00

heehee...=)~~
i had a fabulous birthday...=)
heehee...=)

to start off..
meimei bought me a TITUS watch for birthday...=)
reallie nice one...
yups..
just got back from citylink...met up with peishi,clara,alison,chingz,amy n huiyee...=)
heehee...another eating session n chilling n gossipping...i missed dem...i reallie did..!!! n i miss their crap so much..!!! soemtimes i 'll wake up or finish stoning n realise its so quiet...without their nonsence n wenzwenz dirty talks n chingchings lame jokes...i feel smths missing...
i miss u guys!!!

then was at VE on sun noon...
n all de guys reallie gave me a big big surprise..!!!
haha all de close eye n imagining turned out to be conning me one...lols
yeps...n de candle light n stuffs...so sweet of them...
so so sweet...heehee and 30 pple sharing a cake...=)
so warm...haha i reallie love em...=)
n i reallie reallie promise tina n mr steven illl do my best in ve?
im gonna hit my position asap...fix de most recruitments n go for most appt...
coz i wana be the top... reallie..!!!
thanks guys...for all de motivation when i needed it..=)

c.h.e.l.s. .f.i.l.l.e.d. .w.i.t.h. .l.o.v.e.

2005-04-01T12:43:00.000+08:00

***Ladies***

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot,
who calls you back when you hang up onhim,
who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the boy who kisses your forhead,
who wants to show you off to the worldwhen you are in your sweats,
who holds your hand in front of his friends,
who thinks you're just as pretty withoutmakeupon.
Wait for the one who is constantlyreminding youof how much he cares about you
and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,
"...that's her.

***GUYS***
Find a girl who calls you baby faced instead of hot or sexi
who can't stand it when you hang up on her
andcalls right back,
who would sit there for hours looking into your eyes,
who doesn't care what you look like,
but what's inside counts the most,
Who looks at you with the twinkle in her eyes
and kisses you on the cheek instead of the lips,
Wants to be with you in public,
even ifyou wear those old grass stained and ripped pants with thebleached jersey like always,
Wait for the girl who is a constant reminder of your happiness and joy, who makes you smiles just byknowing she loves you back.
Wait for the girl who you give piggy backrides to inpublic and she still is in view of herfriends,
whileshe gets off and you hear her go
: "you'rethe onefor me, for always"

2005-04-01T12:32:00.000+08:00

its like couple of daes to my birthday.. but i dont exactly feel anything special bout it...quite depress now i feel... was so tired from de muggings last few days...n received a very disappointing sms at 3am saying that "its impossible for her to do smth..."..n that reallie brought down my hopes i had...those that i held on to for the last minute...

Now i know what it means...

de higher ur hopes, de higher ur disappointment...

yups..am only looking forward to meet mabel on de monday,

and maybe peis on de sunday...besides that....nth else to look forward to i guess..=(..

sobsobs...

depressed chels

2005-03-29T19:33:00.000+08:00

my darlings....

2005-03-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

de BIG day 's coming...
haha.. de day of womanity,
wad de heck!!!

itz actuallie Peiz Birthday!!!
n Chelz Birthday!!!

hahhaa...caught ya reading this...
ged us our prezzies!!! heehee =)

*mmuacks* n * huggies *

2005-03-21T23:42:00.000+08:00

* yawnz *....so freaking sleepy n tired....
was on de phone with sebastian last night...
haha n he promised to do my hair for me on my bdae...=)
btw...he's come very jpop hair stylist...=)
yea...so im gonna have new hair soon...

damm...monday blues??
maybe...meeting peiz in de library to stardie later...
boring boring boring...
schs damm boring...gawd...save me...

and last night i msged de one who gave me de purple ring that i wear on mmy thumb everyday....yea...doont know what happened to him...
he seemed so cold...not like de usual him anymore....talk like some answering machine likett...=(....yea...guess pple change???
he used to check out my blog...doubt he'll do tt anymore....
he was reallie nice, frenly..helpful...and sweet and stuffs...n yeaps...
hope he's still de same..felt like talking to him all of sudden yest...so i msged him, n i goot tt kinda response....FINE..!!!

yea...leaving house soon...
sleepie me...
chelsy

2005-03-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

Chelsy blehhh!!!!

chelsy is currently very hungry and tired...
all alone in de library at this hour waiting for peiz n clara to come back....
this clara so bad...left likett when im on de phone...
n apparently our notebk's here too...
so i cant go to de looOo...
-_-"" yeps...

cant seem to finish studying yea...??? =(

so...i'll just keep on studying n wait for them to come back...

basically...spend today doing nth much, except de morning hours meeting up with alison and chingz to see miss yeo. oh...and i just realised...my resume style sucks...haha serious...n idiot them...never share with me de nice nice formats..!!! *kok* alison n chingz head...!!!

*sobsobz* stress...
oh..sorrie ya...to some of you who kena my "bad temper" last night...
sorrie...=Xx *pull my own ears*...and thanks for caring anyway...=)
esp..tina n *....* yups....haha thanks...n de doggy..=)

oh...there finally back...=)
ciao...

*rUM+aNd+RaiSiNs*

chelsy at her lowest

...

december..

sick!

hurt...

blog..

shit

carcarcar

just to say...~

hp lost!

hp lost

blogblogblog nagnagnag

smiling away...~

oh...i wana sleeep!!!!

something missing...

sighs*

alittle...

alittle anxious...

e movie....~

alone...~

sighs*

chels had her fever!

updates...~

dumb of me...

nitey nite nite

burnt...

latenites...

chels...nagnagnag

sito,mark,leen leavign dbs!!! sobsobsz

leadership training rox

leadership training

Just cut my hair...

chels bdae!!!!

rUM+aNd+RaiSiNs