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June 10, 2006

Something that really hit my heart..

I was then an only child who had everything I could ever want.
But even a pretty, spoiled and rich kid could get lonely once in a while
so when Mom told me that she was pregnant, I was ecstatic.
I imagined how wonderful you would be and how we'd always be together
and how much you would look like me.
So, when you were born, I looked at your tiny hands and feet and
marveled at how beautiful you were.
We took you home and I showed you proudly to my friends.
They would touch you and sometimes pinch you, but you never reacted.
When you were five months old, some things began to bother Mom.
You seemed so unmoving and numb,
and your cry sounded odd --- almost like a kitten's.
So we brought you to many doctors.
The thirteenth doctor who looked at you quietly said
you have the "cry du chat" (pronounced Kree-do-sha) syndrome,
"cry of the cat" in French.
When I asked what that meant, he looked at me with pity and softly said,
"Your brother will never walk nor talk."
The doctor told us that it is a condition that afflicts one in 50,000 babies,
rendering victims severely retarded.
Mom was shocked and I was furious.
I thought it was unfair.
When we went home, Mom took you in her arms and cried.
I looked at you and realized that word will get around that you're not normal.
So to hold on to my popularity, I did the unthinkable ...
I disowned you.
Mom and Dad didn't know but I steeled myself not to love you as you grew.
Mom and Dad showered you love and attention and that made me bitter.
And as the years passed, that bitterness turned to anger, and then hate.
Mom never gave up on you.
She knew she had to do it for your sake.
Everytime she put your toys down, you'd roll instead of crawl.
I watched her heart break every time she took away your toys and
strapped your tummy with foam so you couldn't roll.
You struggle and you're cry in that pitiful way,
the cry of the kitten.
But she still didn't give up.
And then one day, you defied what all your doctors said --
you crawled.
When mom saw this, she knew you would eventually walk.
So when you were still crawling at age four,
she'd put you on the grass with only your diapers
on knowing that you hate the feel of the grass on your skin.
Then she'd leave you there.
I would sometimes watch from the windows and smile at your discomfort.
You would crawl to the sidewalk and Mom would put you back.
Again and again, Mom repeated this on the lawn.
Until one day, Mom saw you pull yourself up and
toddle off the grass as fast as your little legs could carry you.
Laughing and crying, she shouted for Dad and I to come.
Dad hugged you crying openly.
I watched from my bedroom window this heartbreaking scene.
Over the years, Mom taught you to speak, read and write.
From then on, I would sometime see you walk outside,
smell the flowers, marvel at the birds, or just smile at no one.
I began to see the beauty of the world through your eyes.
It was then that I realized that you were my brother and
no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn't,
because I had grown to love you.
During the next few days, we again became acquainted with each other.
I would buy you toys and
give you all the love that a sister could ever give to her brother.
And you would reward me by smiling and hugging me.
But I guess, you were never really meant for us.
On your tenth birthday, you felt severe headaches.
The doctor's diagnosis --leukemia.
Mom gasped and Dad held her,
while I fought hard to keep my tears from falling.
At that moment, I loved you all the more.
I couldn't even bear to leave your side.
Then the doctors told us that your only hope is
to have a bonemarrow transplant.
You became the subject of a nationwide donor search.
When at last we found the right match,
you were too sick,
and the doctor reluctantly ruled out the operations.
Since then, you underwent chemotherapy and radiation.
Even at the end, you continued to pursue life.
Just a month before you died,
you made me draw up a list of things you wanted to do
when you got out of the hospital.
Two days after the list was completed,
you asked the doctors to send you home.
There, we ate ice cream and cake,
run across the grass,
flew kites,
went fishing,
took pictures of one another and
let the balloons fly.
I remember the last conversation that we had.
You said that if you die, and if I need of help,
I could send you a note to heaven
by tying it on the string of any balloon and letting it fly.
When you said this, I started crying.
Then you hugged me.
Then again, for the last time, you got sick.
That last night,
you asked for water,
a back rub,
a cuddle.
Finally,
you went into seizure with tears streaming down your face.
Later, at the hospital,
you struggled to talk but the words wouldn't come.
I know what you wanted to say.
"Hear you," I whispered.
And for the last time, I said,
"I'll always love and I will never forget you.
Don't be afraid. You'll soon be with God in heaven."
Then, with my tears flowing freely,
I watched the bravest boy I had ever known finally stop breathing.
Dad, Mom and I cried until I felt as if there were no more tears left.
Patrick was finally gone, leaving us behind.
From then on, you were my source of inspiration.
You showed me how to love life and live to the fullest.
With your simplicity and honesty,
you showed me a world full of love and caring.
And you made me realize that
the most important thing in this life is
to continue loving without asking why or how and without setting any limit.
Thank you, my little brother, for all these.


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 21:46
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hey all....seems that chelsy liu has gone into hiding or smthing...
been missing in action for 6 months...
yup...n de past 6 months i went thru...
im so gonna remember it...
its tonnes n tonnes of hardship n crap...
n endurance n perserverance n more...
its a very tiring n tough journey i'll say...
but u wana know wad this journey got me?

tada!!! hahaa....smile to myself.....


[ pic to be posted later! hahaa *sorry* ]

yup..anyway ive gotten myself a bmw 3 series...
not very wow...but not too bad for a 21yr gal rite?
n im so gonna hurry clear my darts n hit on my license.
o...n de prob is i haven even gotten de time to book my basic..
man....wad if i fail...hahaa ever heard of someone with a car...but no license??? hahaa
anyway...i'll work hard for tt...

meanwhile....really excited for de trip on weds....=)
wana go parteh n playie...n leave de darn lion city!!!
i wana ged outta s'pore asap man....
lifes too hectic n stressful...
i wana be a taitai! lol...
i wana shop n slack for de rest of my life...!!!
ah...dear!!! how i wished u'll turn rich over night... hahaa
dear...i wana travel to all parts of de world with u....
n yuppie...* huggies * love you so much...
thanks for being in my life...
lifes colourful coz of you....
n i wished ure reading this but i know u wont....aiye...
ure even more busy than me....
n no time to go out with u yet...
n de last time we caught a movie together was erm....3 mths plus back....
baby....i wished we have more time for one another...
n yup...before it geds more eee.....
i hafta go....
byeee!!!!


chelsy loves you....


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 21:08
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April 20, 2006


wad a manly lion...=)


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 22:34
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April 19, 2006

i feel so stressed out.....
i really do...why doesnt anything seem to work out fine for me. ..
why doesnt things turn out the way they do...
i wished my friends knew what im going through,
why does it seems absurb to you guys when i told you im serious in a career n is fighting hard for it. im fighting for my car incentive. i only know that i wana succeed in life so much. my objectives n goals are so clear. Even if the whole world forsakes me, ill still be standing.
And for those still with me, i really appreciate it and wana thank you all so much, thanks for living with me, thanks for making dreams come true, thanks for adding colors to my life!

sometimes i just feel too weary, too tired to move on...too tired to walk on....
just too much n heavy for me...life has never been so much stressful before.
neither has life been through so many ups n downs....

for those who dont know, im currently serving my car incentive stage 5...
2 more months to go. and i still needa conquer total of 70,ooo.....i believe i can.
i believe in miracles and i kno wmy belief will never fail me....
walk with me....friends...
if you really take me as your friend,
give me a pat...at least i know you still exist....
i dont need play friends, what i need is true friends....

chelsy at her lowest....


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 01:15
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March 25, 2006

im tired...
....zzzzzz


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 16:16
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March 07, 2006

i love you baby...!!!!! =)


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 00:06
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February 05, 2006

heehee... i missed u all loads!!!!
i missed de angpao visiting on fridae at clara place...! shit...
hahaa... but i have no choice...gotta work...not like em... so taitai!!!
anywaes i met up with dem still after dat....lil clara came and pick me up at laupasat! hahaa i was really surprise n shock to see her drive...coz de clara tt i know is a kanchiong spider! hahaa if got jamm or wad how...lol...yup...so i put on de seatbelt even though i was at de back...lol.. so exagarating...yup...but i really appreciatiate her n ah boon sending me back...so far somemore! lol...bukitpanjang is a terror...!!! its not only far...its very veyr far...!!!!...haha yup..
ah boon also going for tp already...seems that everyones faster than me!!! =X
ive smth to sae here...dearie..thanks for everything...i really appreciate de effort u put in to change for the better coz of me...i love you so much...!!! =) cant wait to go coasting with u again! =)

lifes beautiful...
treasure it....
chelsy liu...


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 10:58
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January 25, 2006

heeheehee... im really surprise...
after a year of ...... we're .........
heeheehee... even though we're from worlds apart...but i believe both our dream will come true...i have de faith tat we can endure til we both make it...
really surprise tt i fell for u too...
very veyr surprise...
nurul was telling me tt i changed...im no longer de old chelsy who only looks at things on de beautiful side...ive learnt how to accept pples weakness n love em... hahaa
n learnt how to love you...=)
lifes beautiful coz of u...


tWo-MaD-WoMeN gossiped at 00:27
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